Thoughts ~ I want to govern over my thoughts. Today I'm starting with worship while I get ready to exercise.
When my last child left home on Sunday, it was a struggle to look around and think about the times and events and know that it's going to be quiet around here without my sons. As I move into this next phase of my life, I recognise there is a grieving of letting go after 36 years of motherhood but with the tendency to go into self-pity I have to guard my heart. I don't have to be afraid of tears or stop them up, just govern over them and be aware of my thoughts and decide to be thankful and tell the Lord how much I loved being a mom and will continue to love it in a different way with added children. I want the Lord to increase my capacity to love more and love abundantly. He must have my heart, my whole heart. So I must not nurse my grieving, but look at my life as opening up to more possibilities.
I've thought so much about what I've done wrong, what I missed out on, what I wish didn't happen, what my circumstances are and how hard they are...they all center around me. My life has been lived as if the world centers and others should center around me...how selfish and self-absorbed. Lord, stretch me and mold me and take me to a new place of thinking rightly and in reality.
Stop
Thinking about me and how something is affecting me and whether I like it or not.
Start
Action: put up encouraging words, sayings, Scriptures to remind me to focus my thoughts on what is
lovely, pure, beautiful, honoring.
When I'm aware of my thoughts, ask a question: Is this thought about me or about loving God and others? Then I will know the action to take and turn my heart toward the one who loves me and thinks about what is best for me and take those thoughts believing the truth.
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