Right now my stomach is churning with butterflies, nervous. I want to remember the words Mary used when we need to stop something and start something. To start is to take action, but I can't remember the word for other part to stop. Things like this trip me up and I started to search instead of going up the mountain. So as I lightly searched for the papers, I saw last year's taxes unfiled and I can't find the papers from the Mary's lesson. And I think there is so much to do, to file, to organize and my stomach gets upset and my eyes start to close and I feel stressed and the body shut down routine starts and I can't think clearly. I need to get control because this isn't good for my body. Just before this I read a post from Barbie about a discount for LOL products and new working on the items and I don't know what it is and I want to know, I want to be part of what is going on and contribute, but I'm not and this bothers me. I feel like an outsider. 

So now Lord, what do I do? How do I stop this? And what do I think and what action do I take so that my heart and mind are yielded to you? I don't want a substitute or to take some herb to take care of the symptoms, I want to change and I don't know how but to ask you for help to lead and guide me into freedom. Thank you Lord.

I can't change what's been done and I don't need to fear the future, I just need to rest in Him right now and take whatever steps the Lord leads me in. I just need to stop this and trust my life into His care and be faithful right now. I don't have to try to get anywhere, just be content right here and obey right now leaving the past in Him and the trusting Him for a better future.

The Lord Met Me...

My stomach was nervous and I kept wondering what is this, what's the bottom line, what am I thinking and where did this come from. Suddenly as I was just starting up the mountain and  resting on my poles talking to myself  I had a thought, "I don't need to figure it out, I just need to turn my thought to the Lord and be grateful." Then I was aware of a song by Kari Jobe, Be Still. The Lord met me just where I was. Thank you Lord.

This couldn't have been more perfect.

1 CORINTHIANS 9:27

MSG

I don’t know about you, but I’m running hard for the finish line. I’m giving it everything I’ve got. No sloppy living for me! I’m staying alert and in top condition. I’m not going to get caught napping, telling everyone else all about it and then missing out myself.

AMP

But [like a boxer] I strictly discipline my body and make it my slave, so that, after I have preached [the gospel] to others, I myself will not somehow be disqualified [as unfit for service].