I'm being tempted to turn to self-pity. I have missed Rich all week. I miss my kids. I miss not doing things or going places with my family and my friends. Today is hard. All I can do is keep working with my plan around here, call on the Lord to draw me to Him. Don't go to anything or anyone as a substitute or diversion or distraction for my Lord.

Jesus, you are the healer of my heart. You are the One I surrender my heart and my emotions to. I'm not going to try to figure out what is going on because my heart is in my throat, but I'm not going to give in to crying or feeling sorry for myself. I am going to praise You. Draw me close and never let me go. You are my friend, You are my family, You are my husband, You are my King and my Lord and my God. Help me surrender and focus on Your goodness and Your kindness.